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RainaRose
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A Hateful ChoiceThe days are passing slowly and it is begining to seem to me that a lot is changing. Aprehension is not uncommon for me in this current state of affairs and as such focusing on any one thing has become nothing more than fleeting imagination. At least, at this particular moment. Many events breeze in and out of my life, breifly filling my head with ideals and trama and then vanishing as quickly as they came. As of late, people have been coming and going as swiftly as the events that I am now accustomed to appearing and fading. Yet the humans that seem to brush me with a smile are leaving the deepest impressions than any of the events that attend with those people. I am struggling with a word, and once uttered will alter the fate of exsistenc, reality, the past, the present, and the future: love. A simple utterence of the word in true meaning holds all the powers that God's blessing does and all of the horrors that the Devil's curse swollows away. (Should I ever use this word lightly from this moment on, may God take my life in mercy.) Men, women, and children all come to leave their foot prints on my heart and hammer into my mind a certian way of being. By my choice or by mere chance, I do not know, but I am the person I am today but some form of advocation. Thus, I am left with blood smeared upon my lips while I wait for a sort of comforting deliverence. Yet who will deliever me, I do not know.
Prehaps the one that I hoped would kiss me in his passion, love me in my tears, and calm me when I'm raged, would be the one to give me such delieverence. Yet not even him can find a path to allow him to lead the heart, for the heart leads itself. Prehaps my heart is to be lead down a new path. One that I do not fully comprhend and do not wish to understand out of the simple fear I feel of what I will discover. So I ask this, and do beg any who reads this to respond dilligently; Do I chain my heart to an Angel or let my heart roam free even if that should mean it become bound to a hateful devil?
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Lord Embeion
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If you love a person. you don't be stupid. Being free means nothing when you lay down at night empty. Love gives a person purpose
Sounds like a struggle of will. To pass a test of time, which most fail.
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RainaRose
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What if, oh say, I loved some one but the presence of another has the chance to turn into love? Should I then revoke what could be because I have something good and fall the concept "The grass is greener until you get on the other side" or do I follow instead the common law "If you don't take chances you will always wonder and never know."? My delima is quite brain racking.
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Lord Embeion
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It has a chance to turn into romance* You forget your love because he has been gone. Your young and want to be held so your trying to tell yourself that it'll be okay if you go with the wind. But remember that marriages that last 50 years are defined on these moments in our lives.
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Sirak Sazen
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I really wish I could help you out, but there's not much I can say other than don't get blinded by love. Good luck mom.
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RainaRose
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I have not forgotten my love. Though the years will fade and time will pass and I may forget everything should the moment come when I must carry myself away, I will not forget the feelings of how strong I am when we are together. I am young, but I think it is clear. Thank You kindly. Christopher shall not be disappointed in my choice.
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